I Don't Know

Where to even start? There has been so much going on in this world that it’s hard to embrace it with healthy senses and just common sense - if one even knows what healthy senses and common sense are anymore.

Are we living in a twisted reality, a 3D game projection, a dream, a cloud nine…? I feel like the word we used to use, Matrix, is passé; it’s not enough.

The photo illustrating this post somehow symbolically shows where we are. A fun fact - it was taken from behind a fence, which adds an extra layer to the whole meaning. Is humanity still sane or in-sane?

As I write these words, I see a few different pictures of us humans (and not-so-humans) who live in “this” world, and I dare to say that each picture can be true and can be a lie, no opinion, no judgement, no choice whatsoever, just a little play. Because we are in times when everything can be true or a lie - it’s your call.

One group would be humans who believe in this reality as it is, without

any extra layers of thoughts and questions, search for deeper meaning; just navigating their life from day to day, believing in one or the other country, government, blue or red or rainbow or whatever color they like, and almost religiously following the words and insights of their superiors, trusting that they have a plan for humanity (and indeed - they do), and that the humanity will be saved because humans serve with their every day lives to the purpose of the superiors; these humans do not crack codes, don't see hidden messages, in fact they don't even look; their mantra is something between fear-follow-comply-obey, assuming that everything is done for their well-being and that their life matters.

There also is another group of humans, which is a mix of not-so-new but still new age spirituality, church followers, some believers who courageously use the word God in conversations (instead of the Universe or Divine); and all them have one thing in common: they believe in higher purpose, higher power, also a being, a person who runs this world; their beliefs are based on energetic and angelic realms, channelings, insights of the divine guides, feelings of being protected by invisible beings and powers, and that there is something bigger, like an omnipotent energy that takes care of this world (worlds), and will make sure that the good wins over the bad (which here comes to a question what is good and what is bad because as everything this also can be relative and conditioned depending on who we are and where we are in the world, and where we are from and so on).

And there are humans who question literally everything, their domain is research about the world, the truth, looking for proofs, connecting the dots, and being brave enough to share their findings with the world; and when they share, it sounds like they know, and definitely they know a lot and they have connected a lot of dots, they sometimes use words God, Universe and divine, and they come up with many theories which as we said might be true or lie, like everything nowadays, but this group also comes with solutions, answers and help in the areas of health, nutrition and every day life that can be different from the life of the group who does not question.

We also have "they", the invisible power behind the visible power and superiors, the ones that plan, rule, give orders, control, manipulate and make sure you're confused about the truth and the lie, and about the other side of things, literally of everything like the moon, the globe, the parts of the world you can't access unless you're "they"; all other groups have their ideas and names for the "they" group, however, the secrets are kept secret, and even if "they" have to inform about their action plans "they" do it the way that you have to be at least a little researcher of the truths and lies to be able to see through but you're able.

And there is more, many more groups, maybe some mixed groups, hybrids, myriads, some visitors from other realms who mix with this realm...

The point is - no matter what group it is - we're all here to experience this game, this dream we dream. And I dare to say that somehow each group is to wake up from the dream they/we dream, me included. Even though, each group is definitely aligned with their righteousness.

A question that arises is what is underneath if there is anything. What's underneath when we wake up from this dream, each single human (and non-so-human) being from their own projected realm and story, fairytale, dream, you name it. Is there anything else? Is it just nothing, vacuum, emptiness? Or is it the opposite - everything, fullness, continuity and existence? And if so, what power is lying behind this? Is it a who? They? Where this all leads us to...? If we rip off all the layers, no matter who we represent and who we believe in and are aligned with, what is underneath? Does it have any depth? Is there any depth? Or is this all a joke? But who is the one inventing this joke and laughing in the end? Is there an end at all?

I know we all, me included, are engaged in the events happening, trying to interpret the meaning, trying to be the smartest one in the room who knows. But who is who, and who really knows?

And at the same time, I feel there is something else beyond this physical body, this so called physical reality (or maybe it is a hologram?). I see it like a "door" in my heart to somewhere, one could say to a soul that connects to somewhere else and something else... even this somethin is writing these words in a way, but what this something really is?

Aren’t we too invested in labeling and finding answers like “I know” answers, “I know” names? What if the space to be is “I don’t know”? Is it a comfortable space to accept? Hmm... yes, no, not really. Because we are conditioned from day one to know, label, name, have answers, be smart, and learn. I learn to accept my "I don't know" because I really don't. I’m wondering if spending more time in the “I don’t know” is a way to get us closer to knowing. Maybe this way, we can hear whatever it is that lies beyond - if there is a beyond, and not just a joke we live in.

Or maybe we are just like this miraculous ladybug from the picture, trying to find a language to talk to this robot - and all of this exists within a framed reality, space and time?

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